This chapter nears a close
I have decided to leave Owatonna. How or when this will happen is still a little fuzzy at this time. By leaving Owatonna I also hope to leave vandwelling as well. My van will still be a valued tool in my stable of recreational vehicles but it will actually be "recreational". Rent in O-town is just too high for me to un-van in that environment. I would need a monumental raise for this to be possible or I would have to wait seven years to get off child support. The notion of dwelling under my current circumstances for seven more years is outright nauseating.
"Whats the big deal, yo? Vandwelling not for you, bro?" Well, during my last big post on the dweller facebook page, I was met with waves of dwellers telling me that the freedom of the van was more than worth the stigma. In the form that they enjoy, I have to believe that is true. As I pointed out at the outset of this project my vandwelling experience would be different.
My freedom is almost nonexistent. Four evenings every two weeks is the time I get to leave my obligations. After those evenings I still have to got to work during the day. Not exacly my idea of a nomadic lifestyle. Certainly, a job without on-call obligations would get me away from this problem but if I am changing jobs its gonna be to iowa anyway.
And the stigma. Those "here today, gone tomorow travelers" rarely hear anything about it. By the time locals realize they were dwellers those folks are tiny specs in that vans rear view mirror. I however was trying to become part of a community. A small minded community at that. Well, I am not trying anymore.
Perhaps, some day when I no longer have as many obligations, I can take to the road and really feel the freedom of the van. For now however, I am throwing in the towel.